The past of my childhood taught me invaluable lessons. Torture and abuse that was intended to be curses have now become true survival blessings.
I can look back at the people and places of that era. Some are old and many have died; and can no longer perpetrate their evil and terror.
These atrocities happened when I was much smaller. Now I have grown mentally and emotionally taller. Let those who must wallow in the past, drown in that black hole squalor.
Siblings and other relatives have remained stagnant and continue to cling to that time frame. I left the horror behind long ago.... and experienced healing from the guilt and shame.
I was away for quite a while. The main monster sibling convinced me that its ways had changed using the utmost guile. It smiled charmingly and pretended to have become a changed person. After being in the household it gradually lifted that hideous curtain.
Why,this entity even attempted to block my established objectives like long ago. Its eyes gleamed as it invited the childhood friends, its offspring, and even a feeble sibling for visits to witness the abuse for a sick dysfunctional show.
IT THOUGHT THAT I HAD FORGOTTEN........but, of course..I did not. This horror show transpired when I was so much smaller. Now I am immune..... and I have grown mentally and emotionally taller. Live in your self-hatred and shame...... as a proverbial pig enjoys squalor.
Many hours on the telephone speaking about years ago. All nasty comments meant to wound and destroy. I recall that years ago this thing destroyed would even gleefully destroy my few cherished toys.
This monster upheld the stepfather pedophile's actions and heaped upon a smaller sibling additional cruelty and verbal abuse. It told our mother that I was a liar..... hence, reporting the violations was of no use.
I AM SHOUTING THIS REFRAIN SO I CAN BE HEARD IN THE CHEAP SEATS!!!!: For those horrific events occurred when I was so much smaller. The family monsters will never again cause pain or.. be a part of my life....and as such, I have grown mentally and emotionally taller. They alone are doomed to be trapped in the past..... to wallow in their self-imposed squalor.